August, with its clouds of scented blooms,
August, with its great stacks of giant clouds,
August, with corn plants standing like rows of soldiers,
August, with watermelons, full and heavy, dozing in the sun,
~ Mary Naylor~
Summer was very fleeting……I think I need another summer to make up for the one I just missed! Other than not having to get up earlier on Sundays for religious education at the parish, or earlier on weekdays for school…..I barely enjoyed a summer “break”. My summer was spent unwinding from the previous 9 months of clutter and chaos……and stress. Yet, stress seemed to build on me this summer. One son spent most of the summer sick. It wasn’t a very fun summer for him at all. Can we have a do over??
We leave for the only wedding of the summer tomorrow morning…hoping it will fare well with the son that has OCD – anxiety, and is terribly phobic about driving. It is an hour and fifteen minute drive. That doesn’t sound long to me, but it’s liable to be if this son loses his composure. Stress. Did I mention Stress? It should be this family’s middle name by now. One older son is recently adding to that stress because he dislikes the stress of the home life here – and I seriously don’t blame him. I have completely lost my patience after nearly 4 years of dealing with the anxiety ridden son and it has all paid it’s toll on our family life. Of course, I get blamed for most it – I don’t manage things well, or patiently, (um, I don’t have any patience left, remember?….nor nerves….the one I had left was mangled earlier this year)….so….we could sure use some peace around here.
The older two are also heading back to college in one week. The oldest leaving earlier because….well, you know…stress. Again, I don’t blame him. I just hope we haven’t totally ruined his life. You know how parents do that.
Ok, all snark-ism aside, it’s been a terrible summer, let’s face it. The only good thing about it was VBS, and it wasn’t perfect because my one son was sick the month it happened. Still…he enjoyed it. He’s such a trooper! Why can’t we all be like him….what a great little example he is.
So, say some prayers for us as we go to a wedding tomorrow (which, btw I am looking forward to, so no one better ruin it!). I know it will not be without it’s stress, nothing I do anymore seems to be without extra stress piled on. I really should talk to a therapist about that…besides just my blog folk :) But, really you are the BEST to talk to – you listen and you don’t talk back and I can’t see you rolling your eyes.
St. Josemaria Escriva…in your kindness and strength of faith, please pray for us. Please pray for all my sons, that your Godliness and strong manhood and responsibility and respect for your parents will also be theirs. Through Christ our Lord. Amen