Dear Lord, I have a son who is having a very hard time growing up. He is making himself miserable and his family members miserable nearly every day; he is on medication and it has cut the miserable moments more than in half, but the ones that arise are very acute and draining. Many days he is an emotional mess from morning to night…..bemoaning this and that, in tears, and being disappointed far too easily and not getting over it. Today was an especially difficult day ……a reminder that he has a long ways to go and I don’t even know sometimes how to respond to him. If you take him seriously and attempt to respond seriously, he finds fault, if you sympathize he grows worse, and if you act like you are ignoring it, it seems to go on longer and he is more sensitive than ever….obviously we can’t win.
I know I’m not the only mother on the planet with a difficult child and I’m sure in time it may resolve….this is my prayer…that it may resolve. In the meantime, maybe meaning several years…..please grant me the strength, the words, the wisdom and the patience to work through it….yet one.more.day. And help to restore my resilience and spirit that I can have some joy in each day, even if very small and fleeting, and that by some miracle this son will change for the better and grow into a happy, healthy and productive young man.
Thank you for listening.
A stressed out Mom